Apa Itu Qarin...??

Tahukah anda setiap manusia dilahirkan dengan kembar masing masing? setiap kali lepas ibu kita bersalin.. si ayah akan membasuh uri..atau orang tua tua kata itu kembar kita.. sebenarnya kembar yang dimaksudkan itu.. dipanggil sebagai Qarin…

Di sebelah kanan kita ialah Malaikat yang akan menyuruh kita membuat perkara-perkara baik manakala Qarin kita akan berada di sebelah kiri dan mengajak kita membuat perkara perkara yang jahat.

Seorang ustaz pernah bercerita… beliau sedang dalam perjalanan pulang ke rumahnya di Bangi pada malam hari. Dalam perjalanan.. dia bertembung dengan peorang perempuan, berpayung di dalam hujan gerimis. Ustaz ini menghentikan kereta beliau dan menumpangkan perempuan itu balik ke rumah. Sepanjang perjalanan perempuan itu menyatakan bahawa dia seorang pelajar UKM tahun 2. Ustaz ni pun belum berkahwin.. merasa seronok dapat berkenalan dengan pelajar perempuan tu. Tambahan pulak Ustaz ni pun mengajar di UKM. Sampai di rumah perempuan tersebut berpesan supaya tidak lagi dtg ke rumahnya kerana ibunya tidak suka lelaki datang. Balik dari menghantar perempuan tersebut, ustaz ini pun bercerita la pada rakan serumahnya.. dia berkenalan dengan perempuan cantik ni tapi tak berpeluang hendak berjumpa lagi. Hendak dijadikan cerita.. esoknya ustaz tersebut mendapati perempuan semalam tertinggal payungnya. Adalah peluang dia pergi kerumah perempuan tadi.

Sampai dirumah perempuan tu.. ibunya saja yang ada di rumah. Ustaz tu pun bertanya tentang perempuan tadi dan cerita la tentang payung nya yang tertinggal tu. Ibu perempuan tu terkejut.. dan menerangkan bahawa perempuan tu memang tinggal di situ. student UKM tahun 2, tapi telah meninggal 2 tahun yang lalu.

Jika peristiwa itu pernah anda lalui.. atau akan lalui.. jgn terkejut.. kerana apa yang anda jumpa ialah Qarin seseorang yang telah meninggal dunia. Qarin ini akan mengulangi detik detik kematian seseorang serupa seperti yang berlaku setiap malam. Qarin akan memakai pakaian yang serupa.. cth: jika seseorang mati di langgar kereta ketika sedang menahan teksi.. Qarin juga akan dilihat sedang menahan kereta seperti keadaan sebelum seseorang itu mati.

Untuk itu jangan takut kerana setiap makhluk di muka bumi ini.. tak kira jin atau syaitan atau Qarin.. semuanya adalah makhluk Allah belaka. Sebelum memulakan sesuatu pekerjaan jgn lupa membaca.. A’uzubillahiminashaitonirrajim…

insyaAllah.. selamat… .. kepada kita yang masih hidup buat la kebaikan supaya kita dapat mendidik Qarin kita untuk turut membuat kebaikan dan akhirnya tidak berupaya menyuruh kita membuat kejahatan… .

Wallahualam

Susahnya Solat Maghrib.....

Pak Kasim seorang yg tamak harta..

Dia menawarkan anak dara suntinya yg cun melecun kepada golongan yg kaya raya sahaja..

Suatu hari datang la Seman, seorang usahawan muda ingin melamar anak Pak Kasim.
Beliau cukup sifat tanpa cacat cela tetapi beliau malas solat.

Setelah 3 hari berkahwin.. seman masih duk kat umah mentuanya. setelah azan maghrib berkumandang.. Pak Kasim mengajak Seman utk solat maghrib berjamaah.

Seman gelabah.. sebelum ini dia tak pernah solat.
lalu Seman masuk ke bilik untuk menemui isterinya.

“Yang.. camner ni.. abang tak penah solat ni”

“Takpe bang.. abang ikut je ape yg ayah buat” isterinya berbisik perlahan.. Seman pun keluar untuk solat bersama Pak Kasim.

Setelah Pak Kasim takbir..

Seman ikut takbir…

Lalu Pak Kasim membaca surah alfatihah.. “Bismillahirrahmanirrahim… ” Seman pun turut membaca bismillah dengan lantang… “Bismillahirrahmanirrahim… ”

Aisyh! pelik menantu aku ni. mazhab mana yg dia ikut? setahu aku imam je yg baca kuat.. getus hati Pak Kasim..

Pak Kasim buat selamba. Dia terus membaca surah al-fatihah.

Seman pun turut membaca surah al-fatihah dgn kuat seolah-olah seorang budak yg baru nak belajar mengaji.

Pak Kasim pelik.. lalu dia terus berpaling ke belakang utk melihat Seman.
Seman turut berpaling ke belakang kerana mengikut gerak langkah pak kasim.

“Ish! gila ke menantu aku ni??”

Pak Kasim berjalan ke depan utk menjauhkan diri dari seman.

Seman turut berjalan ke depan mengikut langkah pak kasim.

Pak Kasim terus melarikan diri melalui pintu depan dan terus menuju ke sawah di tepi rumahnya.

Seman terus berlari mengejar Pak Kasim sampai ke tepi sawah.

Tiba-tiba Pak Kasim tergelincir lalu jatuh ke dalam sawah padi.

Seman pun turut menjatuhkan badannya ke dalam sawah seolah-olah tergelincir.

Pak Kasim pun terus bertanya kepada seman.

“Seman. apesal yg ko ikut aku sampai ke sawah ni?”

“Ayah.. susah ye nak solat maghrib ni. baru saya tau. sampai kena berlari..”

Harimau yang beriman.....

“”Alkisah… .. Seorang lelaki islam ponteng sembahyang Jumaat. Sebaliknya dia masuk hutan untuk memburu ayam hutan. Sedang dia terhendap2 di dalam semak, tiba2 dia berlanggar dengan seekor HARIMAU yang sedang lena tidur.

Dia begitu terkejut sehingga senapangnya tercampak lalu tergelungsur kedalam jurang. Dia pula tergolek ke arah lain, jatuh ke atas batu dan…

KRAKKKK! Kedua2 kakinya patah.

HARIMAU tadi terus menghambatnya, sedangkan dia dah tak boleh bergerak lagi.

“Ya Allah,” doa lelaki tersebut, “Ampunilah dosaku kerana ponteng sembahyang jumaat pada hari Jumaat yang mulia ini…

Ampunilah aku ya Allah… makbulkan hajat ku ini… jadikanlah HARIMAU yang memburuku HARIMAU yang beriman… ! Aminnn..”

Tiba2 guruh berdentum! HARIMAU tadi tiba2 terhenti betul2 di hadapan lelaki tadi.

Tiba-tiba… .

Sambil menadah kedua2 kaki depannya ke langit .. HARIMAU tersebut pun Berdoa, “Allahumma barik lana, fima razaktana, wa qina azzabbannar. Amin! ”

Kerana Gabra....

Salam, got nothing much to write..but found this light joke to share...

Kat baling ada satu famili… famili tu ada ayah n mak mertua, anak dan menantu serta cucu.

satu hari, tengah sedang menantu lelakinya tgk tv, ayah nyer lalu depan dia. Tiba2 ayah mertuanyer rebah depan dia sambil pegang dada.. kelam kabut dia ..pastu bini mak mertua dia pun datang terkam..semua terkejut..semua dh gabra..sambil pegang2 dada… ayah mertua dia pengsan..tak sedar..pastu macam sedar tak sedar..

menantu tadi gabra..mak mentua dia suruh dia ajar mengucap kat bapak dia tu sebab dia ribakan. Dia gabra jugak… pastu bini dia pun suruh sambil tolak2 bahu… mak dia suruh lagi… dah gabra sgt, dia pun buat..dia letak kt telinga ayah mertua dia dan dia pun cakap…

“MA ROBBUKA… .” “” terkejut bini n mak mertua dia.. tiba2 ayah mertua dia sedar dan terus sound.. “OII..AKU TK MATI LAGI DEYY… ‘” “sambil ayah mertua dia tu urut2 dada dia..

sepatutnya dia ajar mengucap, gabra punya pasal..dia dah jadi malaikat..

Mak...

Bila seronok, aku cari. ...pasanganku
Bila sedih, aku cari....Mak
Bila berjaya, aku ceritakan pada....pasanganku
Bila gagal, aku ceritakan pada....Mak
Bila bahagia, aku peluk erat....pasanganku
Bila berduka, aku peluk erat....Emakku
Bila nak bercuti, aku bawa....pasanganku
Bila sibuk, aku hantar anak ke rumah....Mak
Bila sambu...t valentine.. Aku bagi hadiah pada pasanganku
Bila sambut hari ibu...aku cuma dapat ucapkan "Selamat Hari Ibu"
Selalu.. aku ingat pasanganku
Selalu.. Mak ingat kat aku
Bila-bila... aku akan talipon pasanganku
Entah bila... aku nak talipon Mak.
Selalu...aku belikan hadiah untuk pasanganku
Entah bila... aku nak belikan hadiah untuk Emak
Renungkan:
"Kalau kau sudah habis belajar dan berkerja...
bolehkah kau kirim wang untuk Mak?
Mak bukan nak banyak... lima puluh ringgit sebulan pun cukuplah".

Berderai air mata jika kita mendengarnya........

Tapi kalau Mak sudah tiada.....

MAKK....AKU RINDUUU.......

Sekadar Renungan.....

Renungan untuk diri sendiri dan juga anda. Ambil lah sedikit masa anda untuk membaca dan menghayatinya.

Adalah seorang hamba Allah ni, dia pergilah bersiar-siar di tepi hutan. Sedang dia menghirup udara rimba yg segar tu, tetiba dia terdengar satu bunyi.. jeng!jeng!jeng!.. bunyi…. aauuummmmm!!! Bunyi harimau yg kelaparan dan hanya menunggu mangsanya saja.

Jadi, si hamba Allah ni pun lari untuk menyelamatkan diri. Harimau tu kejar hamba Allah ni. Sebab dia dah lapar sangat ni. Harimau tu pun kejar, kejar, kejar dan kejar. Hamba Allah ni punyalah takut, berlari lintang pukang. Sempat juga dia berdoa agar dia diselamatkan daripada dibaham dek harimau tadi.

Dengan kuasa Allah diperlihatkan sebuah perigi di depan mata nya. Jadi untuk menyelamatkan diri si hamba Allah ni pun terjunlah ke dalam perigi. Perigi tu ada tali dan sebuah timba. Si hamba Allah ni bergayut pada tali tu. Tali tu pendek jer. Jadi dia bergantungan di tengah-tengah perigi.

Di mulut perigi, harimau yg lapar tu menunggunya. Si hamba Allah ni pun berfikirlah macam mana nak menyelamatkan diri, sambil berdoa kepada Allah agar dia diselamatkan. Tengah dok berfikir camner nak selamat, tetiba dengar bunyi kocakan air di bawah perigi.
Aaaaa!!!!… Ya Allah….. lagilah seram dibuatnya. Nak tahu ada apa kat bawah tu? Ada 2 ekor buaya yg kelaparan. Apalah nasib. Dah jatuh ditimpa tangga. lagilah takut si hamba Allah ni. Atas ada harimau bawah ada buaya. Semakin risau dan takut.

Tengah berfikir untuk mencari jalan keluar, tetiba keluar seekor tikus putih dari lubang celah-celah perigi, naik ke atas ikut tali yg hamba Allah tu bergayut. Sampai kat atas tikus tu gigit tali tu pulak. Cis, kurang ajar punya tikus. Alahhhh… cam ner ni. Pas tu, keluar lagi seekor tikus yg berwarna hitam. Naik mengikut tali tadi, cit!cit! cit!cit! sampai kat atas.Tikus hitam ni pun gigit juga tali tu. Cis, lagi satu. Macam mana aku nak buat ni… habislah jadi mangsa buaya.

Berfikir lagi. Kalau naik kat atas makan dek harimau. Kalau tunggu tali putus dan jatuh ke bawah makan dek buaya. Macam mana nih… Sedang hamba Allah tu berfikir cam ner nak selamatkan dirinya, tetiba…. terdengar satu bunyi…. uuuuuuuuuuuuu… Bunyi lebah bawa madu.

Hamba Allah ni pun mendongak ke langit, melihat lebah yg sedang bawa madu. Tetiba setitik madu terjatuh dan terus masuk ke dalam mulut si hamba Allah ni tadi. Punyalah nikmat sehingga tidak terkata. Hamba Allah tu berkata, “Fuh manisnya madu ni , tak pernah ku rasa manisnya ni. Sedapnya. Subhanallah sungguh sedap ni.” kerana setitik madu si hamba Allah tu lupa pada harimau yg sedang menantinya di mulut perigi dan buaya yg menantinya di bawah.

Sebenarnya …
Si Hamba Allah itu adalah kita semua. Harimau yg mengejar tu adalah maut kita, ajal memang sentiasa mengejar kita, so beringat-ingatlah. 2 ekor buaya itu adalah malaikat Munkar Dan Nakir yg menanti kita di alam kubur nanti. Tali yg tempat di hamba bergayut tadi adalah jangka hayat kita kalau pendek talinya maka panjanglah umur kita dan kalau panjang talinya maka pendeklah umur kita.

Tikus Putih dan Hitam tu adalah dunia kita siang dan juga malam yang sentiasa menghakis umur kita. Kan tikus tu gigit tali tu. Madu… madu yg jatuh setitik ke dalam mulut hamba itu tadi adalah nikmat dunia. Bayangkan setitik saja madu tu jatuh ke dalam mulutnya, dia lupa pada harimau dan buaya tu. Macam kitalah bila dapat nikmat sikit lupa pada Allah. Waktu susah baru la nak ingat Allah. Astaghfirullah…

1 minit untuk mengingati Allah, sebutlah dengan sepenuh hati dan lidah yang fasih akan:

* SUBHANA’LLAH
* ALHAMDULI’LLAH
* LA I LAHA ILLA’LLAH
* ALLAHU AKBAR
* ASTAGHFIRU’LLAH
* LA ILAH ILLA’LLAH, MUHAMMADUN RASULU’LLAH
* ALLAHUMMA SALLY WA SALLEM WABAREK ALA SAYYEDINA MUHAMMAD
* WA AALIHE WA SAHBIH AJMA’EEN

Kisah 5 perkara aneh.....

Abu Laits as-Samarqandi adalah seorang ahli fiqah yang masyur. Suatu ketika dia pernah berkata, ayahku menceritakan bahawa antara Nabi-Nabi yang bukan Rasul ada menerima wahyu dalam bentuk mimpi dan ada yang hanya mendengar suara.
Maka salah seorang Nabi yang menerima wahyu melalui mimpi itu, pada suatu malam bermimpi diperintahkan yang berbunyi, "Esok engkau dikehendaki keluar dari rumah pada waktu pagi menghala ke barat. Engkau dikehendaki berbuat:-
1. Apa yang engkau lihat (hadapi) maka makanlah,
2. Engkau sembunyikan,
3. Engkau terimalah,
4. Jangan engkau putuskan harapan,
5. Larilah engkau daripadanya."

Pada keesokan harinya, Nabi itu pun keluar dari rumahnya menuju ke barat dan kebetulan yang pertama dihadapinya ialah sebuah bukit besar berwarna hitam. Nabi kebingungan sambil berkata, "Aku diperintahkan memakan pertama aku hadapi, tapi sungguh aneh sesuatu yang mustahil yang tidak dapat dilaksanakan."
Maka Nabi itu terus berjalan menuju ke bukit itu dengan hasrat untuk memakannya. Ketika dia menghampirinya, tiba-tiba bukit itu mengecilkan diri sehingga menjadi sebesar buku roti. Maka Nabi pun mengambilnya lalu disuapkan ke mulutnya. Bila ditelan terasa sungguh manis bagaikan madu. Dia pun mengucapkan syukur 'Alhamdulillah'.

Kemudian Nabi itu meneruskan perjalanannya lalu bertemu pula dengan sebuah mangkuk emas. Dia teringat akan arahan mimpinya supaya disembunyikan, lantas Nabi itu pun menggali sebuah lubang lalu ditanamkan mangkuk emas itu, kemudian ditinggalkannya. Tiba-tiba mangkuk emas itu terkeluar semula. Nabi itu pun menanamkannya semula sehingga tiga kali berturut-turut.

Maka berkatalah Nabi itu, "Aku telah melaksanakan perintahmu." Lalu dia pun meneruskan perjalanannya tanpa disedari oleh Nabi itu, mangkuk emas itu keluar semula dari tempat ia ditanam. Ketika dia sedang berjalan, tiba-tiba dia ternampak seekor burung helang sedang mengejar seekor burung kecil. Kemudian terdengarlah burung kecil itu berkata, "Wahai Nabi Allah, tolonglah aku."

Mendengar rayuan burung itu, hatinya merasa simpati lalu dia pun mengambil burung itu dan dimasukkan ke dalam bajunya. Melihatkan keadaan itu, lantas burung helang itu pun datang menghampiri Nabi itu sambil berkata, "Wahai Nabi Allah, aku sangat lapar dan aku mengejar burung itu sejak pagi tadi. Oleh itu janganlah engkau patahkan harapanku dari rezekiku." Nabi itu teringatkan pesanan arahan dalam mimpinya yang keempat, iaitu tidak boleh putuskan harapan. Dia menjadi kebingungan untuk
menyelesaikan perkara itu. Akhirnya dia membuat keputusan untuk mengambil pedangnya lalu memotong sedikit daging pehanya dan diberikan kepada helang itu. Setelah mendapat daging itu, helang pun terbang dan burung kecil tadi dilepaskan dari dalam bajunya.

Selepas kejadian itu, Nabi meneruskan perjalananya. Tidak lama kemudian dia bertemu dengan satu bangkai yang amat busuk baunya, maka dia pun bergegas lari dari situ kerana tidak tahan menghidu bau yang menyakitkan hidungnya. Setelah menemui kelima-lima peristiwa itu, maka kembalilah Nabi ke rumahnya. Pada malam itu, Nabi pun berdoa. Dalam doanya dia berkata, "Ya Allah, aku telah pun melaksanakan perintah-Mu sebagaimana yang diberitahu di dalam mimpiku, maka jelaskanlah kepadaku erti semuanya ini."

Dalam mimpi beliau telah diberitahu oleh Allah S.W.T. bahawa,
1. Engkau makan itu ialah marah. Pada mulanya nampak besar seperti bukit tetapi pada akhirnya jika bersabar dan dapat mengawal serta menahannya, maka marah itu pun
akan menjadi lebih manis daripada madu.
2. Semua amal kebaikan (budi), walaupun disembunyikan, maka ia tetap akan nampak jua.
3. Jika sudah menerima amanah seseorang, maka janganlah kamu khianat kepadanya.
4. Jika orang meminta kepadamu, maka usahakanlah untuknya demi membantu kepadanya meskipun kau sendiri berhajat.
5. Bau yang busuk itu ialah ghibah (menceritakan hal seseorang). Maka larilah dari orang-orang yang sedang duduk berkumpul membuat ghibah."

Saudara-saudaraku, kelima-lima kisah ini hendaklah kita semaikan dalam diri kita, sebab kelima-lima perkara ini sentiasa sahaja berlaku dalam kehidupan kita sehari-hari. Perkara yang tidak dapat kita elakkan setiap hari ialah mengata hal orang, memang menjadi tabiat seseorang itu suka mengata hal orang lain. Haruslah kita ingat bahawa kata-mengata hal seseorang itu akan menghilangkan pahala kita, sebab ada sebuah hadis mengatakan di akhirat nanti ada seorang hamba Allah akan terkejut melihat pahala yang tidak pernah dikerjakannya. Lalu dia bertanya, "Wahai Allah, sesungguhnya pahala yang Kamu berikan ini tidak pernah aku kerjakan di dunia dulu." Maka berkata Allah S.W.T., "Ini adalah pahala orang yang mengata-ngata tentang dirimu." Dengan ini haruslah kita sedar bahawa walaupun apa yang kita kata itu memang benar, tetapi kata-mengata itu akan merugikan diri kita sendiri. Oleh kerana itu, hendaklah kita jangan mengata hal orang walaupun ia benar.

Misunderstandings really do affect all of us ...

Salam, got this story from fb via fren's notes.....it hit me hard actually...since for the past years of our marriage...how simple misunderstanding had both scared our hearts deeply...and how this situation is a waste of energy, time, and robbed you from living the happy life that are supposed to...I can relate well REALLY ...REALLY WELL... to this story...may experience make us wiser....Insya Allah....


Good reading article. This is a wonderful and touching story of a Shanghai
couple. It can happen to any of us.

#Moral of the story...let's not be blinded by that moment of anger...there is no shame to seek forgiveness and to give forgiveness. Itsworth your time to read the story till the end.

Enjoy... the reading

This is a true story, taken from "Family" (dictated by LD, edited
by LSX, translated by SaFe).


Cruel misunderstandings one after another disrupted the blissful footsteps to our family. Our original intend of having Mother enjoy some quiet and peaceful moments in her remaining years with us went terribly wrong as destiny's secret is finally revealed at a price, every thing became too late.

Just two years after our marriage, hubby brought up the idea of asking Mother to move from the rural hometown and spend her remaining years with us. Hubby's father passed away while he was still very young.Mother endured much hardship and struggled all on her own to provide for him, see him through to a university degree. You could say that she suffered a great deal and did everything you could expect of a woman
to bring hubby to where he is today.

I immediately agreed and started packing the spare room, which has a balcony facing the South to let her enjoy the sunshine and plant some greenery. Hubby stood in the bright room, and suddenly just picked me up and started spinning round and round. As I begged him to put me down,he said: "Lets go fetch mother." Hubby is tall and big sized and I love to rest on his chest and enjoy the feeling that he could pick me up
at any moment put the tiny me into his pockets. Whenever we have an argument and both refuses to back down, he would pick me up and spin me over his head continuously until I surrender and beg for mercy. I became addicted to this kind of panic-joy feeling.

Mother brought along her countryside habits and lifestyle with her. For example; I am so used to buying flowers to decorate the living room, she could not stand it and would comment: "I do not know how you young people spend your money, why do you buy flowers for? You also can't eat the flowers!" I smiled and said: "Mum, with flowers in the house, our mood will also become better." Mother continues to grumble away, and hubby smiled: "Mum, this is a city-people's habit; slowly you will get use to it."

Mother stopped saying anything. But every time thereafter, whenever I came home with flowers, she would ask me how much it costs. I told her and she would shake her head and express displeasure. Sometimes, when I come home with lots of shopping bags, she would ask each and every item how much they cost, I would tell her honestly and she would get even more upset about it. Hubby playfully pinched my nose and said: "You
little fool, just don't tell her the full price of everything would solve it." There begins the friction to our otherwise happy lifestyle.

Mother hates it most when hubby wakes up early to prepare the breakfast.In your view, how could the man of the house cook for the wife? At the breakfast table, mother facial expression is always like the dark clouds before a thunderstorm and I would pretend not to notice. She would use her chopsticks and make a lot of noise with it as her silent protest. As I am a dance teacher in the Children's Palace and is exhausted from a long day of dancing around, I do not wish to give up the luxury of that additional few minutes in the comfort of my bed and hence I turned a deaf ear to all the protest mother makes.

From time to time, mother would help out with some housework, but soon her help created additional work for me. For example: she would keep all kinds of plastic bags accumulating them so that she sell them later on, and that resulted in our house being filled with all the trash bags; she would scrimp on dish washing detergent when helping to wash the dishes and so as not to hurt her feelings, I would quietly wash they again.

One day, late at night, mother saw me quietly washing the dishes, and "Bam" she slams her bedroom door and cried very loudly in her room. Hubby was placed in a difficult position, and after that, he did not speak to me for that entire night. I pretended to be a spoilt child, tried acting cute, but he totally ignored me. I got mad and asked him: "What did I do wrong?" Hubby stared at me and said: "Can't you just give in to her once? We couldn't possibly die eating from a bowl however unclean it is, right?"

After that incident, for a long period of time, mother did not speak to me and you can feel that there is a very awkward feeling hanging in the house. During that period of cold war, hubby was caught in dilemma as to who to please.

In order to stop her son from having to prepare breakfast, mother took on the "all important" task of preparing breakfast without any prompting. At the breakfast table, mother would look at hubby happily eating his breakfast and cast that reprimanding stare at me for having failed to perform my duty as a wife. To avoid the embarrassing breakfast situation, I resorted to buying my own breakfast on my way to work.

That night, while in bed, hubby was a little upset and asked me:"LD,is it because you think that mum's cooking is not clean that's why you chose not to eat at home?" He then turned his back on me and left me alone in tears as feeling of unfairness overwhelmed me. After some time, hubby sighed: "LD,just for me, can you have breakfast at home?" I am left with no choice but to return to the breakfast table.

The next morning, I was having porridge prepared by mother and I felt a sudden churn in my stomach and everything inside seem to be rushing up my throat. I tried to suppress the urge to throw up but I couldn't. I threw down the bowl and rushed into the washroom and vomited everything out. Just as I was catching my breath, I saw mother crying and grumbling very loudly in her dialect, hubby was standing at the washroom doorway staring at me with fire burning in his eyes. I opened my mouth but no words came out of it, I really didn't mean it.

We had our very first big fight that day; mother took a look at us, then stood up and slowly made her way out of the house. Hubby gave me a final stare in the eye and followed mother down the stairs.

For three days, hubby did not return home, not even a phone call. I was so furious, since mother arrived; I had been trying my best and putting up with her, what else do you want me to do? For no reason, I keep having the feeling to throw up and I simply have not appetite for food, coupled with all the events happening at home, I was at the low point in my life. Finally, a colleague said: "LD, you look terrible, you should go and see a doctor."

The doctor confirmed that I am pregnant. Now it became clear to me why I threw up that fateful morning, a sense of sadness floated through that otherwise happy news. Why didn't hubby, and mother who had been through this before, thought of the possibility of this being the reason that day? At the hospital entrance, I saw my hubby standing there. It had only been three days, but he looked haggard. I had wanted to turn and leave, but one look at him and my heart soften, I couldn't resist and called out to him. He followed my voice and finally found me but he pretended that he doesn't know me; he has that disgusted look in his eyes that cut right through my heart.

I told myself not to look at him anymore, and hail a cab. At that moment, I have such a strong urge inside me to shout to my hubby: "Darling, I am having your baby!" and have him lift me up and spin me round in circles of joy. What I wanted didn't happen and as I sat in the cab, my tears started rolling down. Why? Why our love couldn't even withstand the test of one fight? Back home, I lay on the bed thinking about my hubby, and the disgusted look in his eyes. I cried and wet the corner of the blanket.

That night, sound of the drawers opening woke me up. I switched on the lights and I saw hubby with tears rolling down his face. He was removing the money. I stared at him in silence; he ignored me, took the bank deposit book and some money and left the house. Maybe he really intends to leave me for good. What a rational man, so clear-cut in love and money matters. I gave a few dried laugh and tears starting streaming down again.

The next day, I did not go to work. I wanted to clear this out and have a good talk with hubby. I reached his office and his secretary gave me a weird look and said: "Mr. Tan's mother had a traffic accident and is now in the hospital." I stood there in shock. I rushed to the hospital and by the time I found hubby, mother had already passed away. Hubby did not look at me, his face was expressionless.

I looked at mother's pale white and thin face and I couldn't control the tears in my eyes. My god, how could this happen? Throughout the funeral, hubby did say a single word to me, with only the occasional disgusted stare at me. I only managed to find out brief facts about the accident from other people. That day, after mother left the house, she walked in dazed toward the bus stop, apparently intending to go back to her old house back in the countryside. As hubby ran after her, she tried to walk
faster and as she tried to cross the street, a public bus came and hit her...

I finally understood how much hubby must hate me, if I had not thrown up that morning, if we had not quarreled, if...

In his heart, I am indirectly the killer of his mother.

Hubby moved into mother's room and came home every night with a strong liquor smell on him. And me, I am buried under the guilt and self pity and could hardly breathe. I wanted to explain to him, tell him that we are going to have our baby soon, but each time, I saw the dead look in his eyes, all the words I have at the brink of my mouth just fell back in. I had rather he hit me real hard or give me a big and thorough scolding though none of these events happening had been my fault at all.

Many days of suffocating silence went by and as the days went by, hubby came home later and later. The deadlock between us continues, we were living together like strangers who don't know each other. I am like the dead knot in his heart.

One day, I passed by a western restaurant, looking into the glass window, I saw hubby and a girl sitting facing each other and he very lightly brushed her hair for her, I understood what it meant.

After recovering from that moment of shock, I entered the restaurant,stood in front of my hubby and stared hard at him, not a tear in my eyes. I have nothing to say to him, and there is no need to say anything.

The girl looked at me, looks at hubby, stands up and wanted to go,hubby stretched out his hand and stopped her. He stared back at me, challenging me. I can only hear my slow heart beat, beating, one by one as if at the brink of death. I eventually backed down, if I had stood that any longer, I will collapse together with the baby inside me.

That night, he did not come home, he had chosen to use that as a way to indicate to me: Following mother's death so did our love for each other. He did not come home anymore after that. Sometimes, when I returned home from work, I can tell that the cupboard had been touched - he had returned to take some of his stuff.

I no longer wish to call him; the initial desire to explain everything to him vanished.

I lived alone; I go for my medical checkups alone, my heart breaks again and again every time I see a guy carefully helping his wife through the physical examination. My office colleagues hinted to me to consider aborting the baby, I told them No, I will not. I insisted on having to this baby, perhaps it is my way of repaying mother for causing her death.

One day, I came home and I saw hubby sitting in the living room. The whole house was filled with cigarette smoke. On the coffee table, there was this piece of paper. I know what it is all about without even looking at it.

In the two months plus of living alone, I have gradually learned to find peace within myself. I looked at him, removed my hat and said: "You wait a while, I will sign." He looked at me, mixed feelings in his eyes,just like mine. As I hang up my coat, I keep repeating to myself "You cannot cry, you cannot cry..." my eyes hurt terribly, but I refused to let tears come out from there.

After I hung up my coat, hubby's eyes stared fixed at my bulging tummy. I smiled, walked over to the coffee table and pull e paper towards me.Without even looking at what it says, I signed my name on it and pushed the paper to him.

"LD, you are pregnant?"

Since mother's accident, this is the first time he spoke to me. I could not control my tears any further and they fell like raindrops. I said: "Yes, but its ok, you can leave now." He did not go, in the dark, we sat, facing each other.

Hubby slowly moved over me, his tears wet the blanket. In my heart, everything seems so far away, so far that even if I sprint, I could never reach them.

I cannot remember how many times he repeated "sorry" to me, I had originally thought that I would forgive him, but now I can't. In the western restaurant, in front of that girl, that cold look in his eyes, I will never forget, ever. We have drawn such deep scares in each other's heart. For me, its unintentional; for him, totally intentional.

I had been waiting for this moment of reconciliation, but I realized now, what had gone past is gone forever and could not repeated.Other than the thought of the baby inside me that would bring some warmth to my heart, I am totally cold towards him, I no longer eat anything he buys for me, I don't take any presents from him and I stopped talking to him. From the moment I signed on that piece of paper, marriage and love had vanished from my heart.

Sometimes, hubby will try to come into the bedroom, but when he walks in, I will walk out to the living room. He had no choice but to sleep in mother's room. At night, from his room, I can hear light sounds of groaning, I kept quiet. This used to be his trick; last time, whenever I ignore him, he would fake illness and I will surrender and find out what is wrong with him, he would then grab me and laugh. He has forgotten that last time; I cared for him and am concerned because there is love, but now, what is there between us?

Hubby's groaning came on and off continuing all the way till baby was born. Almost everyday, he would buy something for the baby, infant products, children products and books that kids like to read. Bags and bags of it stacked inside his room till it is full. I know he is trying to use this to reach out to me, but I am no longer moved by his actions. He has no choice but to lock himself in his room and I can hear his typing away on his computer keyboard, maybe he is now addicted to web surfing, but none of that matters to me anymore.

It was sometime towards the end of spring in the following year, one late night, I screamed because of a sudden stomach pain, hubby came rushing into the room, its like he did not change and sleep, and had been waiting for this moment. He carried me and ran down the stairs, stopped a car, holding my hand very tightly and kept wiping the sweat off my brown, throughout the journey to the hospital. Once we reached the hospital, he carried me and hurried into the delivery suite. Lying on the back of his skinny but warmth body, a thought crossed my mind: In my lifetime, who else would love me as much as he did?

He held the delivery suite door opened and watch me go in, his warm eyes caused me to managed a smile at him despite my contraction pain.

Coming out of the delivery room, hubby looked at our son, and me, his eyes tear with joy and he kept smiling. I reached out and touched his hand.Hubby looked at me, smiling and then he slowly collapsed onto the floor. I cried out for him in pain... He smiled, but without opening that tired eyes of his... I had thought that I would never shed any tear for him, but the truth is, I have never felt a deeper pain cutting through my body at that moment.

Doctor said that by the time hubby discovered he had liver cancer, it was already in terminal stage and it was a miracle that he managed to last this long. I asked the doctor when did he first discover he had cancer? Doctor said about 5 months ago and consoled me saying: "Prepare for his funeral." I disregarded the nurse's objection and rushed home, I went into his room and checked his computer, and a suffocating pain hits me.

Hubby's cancer was discovered 5 months ago, his groaning was real, and I had thought that... the computer showed over 200 thousand words he wrote for our son: "Son, just for you, I have persisted, to be able to take a look at you before I fall, is my biggest wish now... I know that in your life, you will have many happiness and maybe some setbacks, if only I can accompany you throughout that journey, how nice would it be. But daddy now no longer has that chance. Daddy has written inside here all the
possible difficulties and problems you may encounter during your lifetime, when you meet with these problems, you can refer to daddy's suggestion... Son, after writing these 200 thousand words, I feel as if I have accompanied you through your life journey. To be honest, daddy is very happy. Do love your mother, she has suffered, she is the one who loves you most and also the one who loves me most..."

From play school to primary school, to secondary, university, to work and even in dealing with questions of love, everything big and small was written there.

Hubby has also written a letter for me:

"My dear, to marry you is my biggest happiness, forgive me for the pain I have caused you, forgive me for not telling you my illness, because I want to see you be in a joyful mood waiting for the arrival of our baby... My dear, if you cried, it means that you have forgiven me and I would smile, thank you for loving me... These presents, I'm afraid I cannot give them to our son personally, could you help me to give some of them to him every year, the dates on what to give when are all written on the packaging..."

Going back to the hospital, hubby is still in coma. I brought our son over and place him beside him. I said: "Open your eyes and smile, I want our son to remember being in the warmth of your arms..."

He struggled to open his eyes and managed a weak smile. Our son still in his arms was happily waving his tiny hands in the air. I press the button on the camera and the sound of the shutter rang thought the air as tears slowly rolled down my face...


The end...

Politics....?????

Salam, should I or shouldn't I touch about this topic....a wrong said end-up in jail...not to say...better....but as a ME...I have to speak out the bottle-up feelings...at least a little bit will do..hehe... Tired actually in digesting all the facts from all the sourcess...which one is true ..which one is false...the conclusion overall...nothing clean comes from the word
politic...still remember..The late Ustz Fadhil..once quotes to one political figure..."corrupted...morally, physically, spiritually..." all politicians are...actually... The dirtiest games of all.....Nothing good..to take...all rotten souls..inside this arena...my thought...la...hmmm...no words to describe..only how human being itself the cause of every distraction on earth....just to fulfill their thirst and lust for power and money...there's no agenda in defending the people...as what this hadith said....

"Rasulullah SAW bersabda yang artinya : “Apabila amanah diabaikan orang, maka tunggulah kehancurannya, lalu sahabat bertanya pada Rasulullah : Bagai mana amanah itu diabaikan orang ya Rasul. Beliau menjawab : Apabila suatu perkara diserahkan kepada yang bukan ahlinya, maka tunggulah kehancurannya. [H.R.Bukhari].

Can clearly be seen with the naked eye...there's no need for an expert to see how all politician of today..not from the intelectual sorts...none are expert in what they being trusted for...hmmm....again...

Lost actually...in this game who to vote for this coming campaign...since ...TIADA SATU PUN DIKALANGAN AHLINYA....

10 punca sifat amarah....

Nabi SAW dalam hadis diriwayatkan daripada Abu Hurairah, seorang lelaki datang kepada Nabi SAW lalu berkata: “Berwasiatlah kepadaku Ya Rasulullah. Lalu Baginda bersabda: Jangan engkau marah.” Nabi SAW mengulanginya sebanyak tiga kali.

Setiap manusia ada mempunyai sifat marah, begitu juga haiwan. Seekor kucing yang jinak dan manja akan marah apabila kita menyakitinya dengan menarik ekornya beberapa kali.

Sifat sabar adalah penghalang daripada sifat marah. Bagaimanapun, kesabaran ada had dan batasnya kerana apabila sudah hilang sabar maka timbullah kemarahan.

Menurut Imam Al-Ghazali, sikap marah ialah nyalaan api bersumber daripada api Allah yang menyala dan menjulang tinggi sampai naik ke hati. Maka terpulang kepada seseorang untuk cepat marah, marah keterlaluan (marah tidak bertempat), marah pertengahan (mampu mengawal marahnya) atau tidak tahu marah.

Marah yang sederhana adalah marah terpuji, manakala tidak tahu marah adalah terkeji dan marah keterlaluan adalah termasuk dalam marah terkeji yang dilarang oleh Nabi SAW seperti sabdanya.

Marah keterlaluan dilarang Islam kerana mendatangkan kesan dan implikasi tidak baik kepada orang yang marah, juga orang kena marah. Disebabkan marah ada rumah tangga runtuh, kerana marah anak didera, pembunuhan berlaku, anak lari dari rumah, majikan ditetak pembantu rumah dan kerana marah orang saman-menyaman.

Menurut Imam Al-Ghazali, 10 punca menyebabkan sifat marah:

# rasa bangga diri (sombong)

# takjub kepada peribadi sendiri

# suka bergurau senda yang ber lebihan dan melampaui batas

# suka bercakap perkara sia-sia

# suka membuat fitnah

# suka berbantah-bantah dalam sesuatu perkara

# khianat

# tamak kepada harta dan pangkat

# tidak dapat mengendalikan nafsu dan emosi dengki dan irihati.

Apabila seseorang itu marah maka pergerakan fizikalnya akan turut berubah. Api kemarahan semakin memuncak menyebabkan percakapannya menjadi kuat, kata-kata tidak teratur, bahasanya lucah, kasar dan bersifat menghina.

Orang yang marah akan merendah-rendahkan orang dimarah, muka dan matanya menjadi merah, badannya terketar-ketar, tangan dan kakinya menjadi ringan untuk memukul dan menghentam, akalnya pada waktu itu tidak digunakan secara betul, semua tindakan mengikut nafsu kemarahannya.

Bagi orang yang waras, tentu kita tidak sanggup melihat keadaan kita sewaktu marah jika ia dirakam dan ditayang semula untuk menontonnya. Bagi orang yang kena marah mungkin akan berdiam diri, kadang kala melawan dengan kata-kata atau kekuatan.

Marah turut berlaku kepada individu yang mempunyai kedudukan seperti orang agama berstatus ustaz, ustazah, tuan guru, ulama, marah dan melenting.

Marah yang dipuji adalah marah yang pertengahan, iaitu marah bertempat. Contohnya, seorang bapa marah kepada anaknya yang tidak mahu bersolat atau menutup aurat. Nabi SAW mengajar dalam sabdanya yang bermaksud: “Suruhlah anak kamu bersolat ketika berumur tujuh tahun dan pukullah mereka yang tidak mahu bersolat ketika berumur 10 tahun dan pisahkan mereka dari tempat tidur.”

Marah kepada mereka yang memusuhi Islam sehingga kita boleh mengisytiharkan berperang. Begitu juga dalam mencegah kemungkaran, perlu ada marah.

Contoh paling hebat berlaku dalam sejarah ialah ketika Saidina Ali berada dalam satu peperangan di mana beliau hampir hendak memenggal leher musuhnya, tiba-tiba musuhnya itu meludah mukanya. Lalu Saidina Ali tidak jadi memenggal lehernya.

Maka musuhnya berasa pelik lalu bertanya kepada Saidina Ali mengapa tidak jadi membunuhnya. Maka Saidina Ali menjawab: “Aku takut bahawa aku membunuhmu bukan kerana Allah tetapi kerana marah kepada kamu kerana meludahku.” Hebatnya Saidina Ali masih lagi menggunakan pertimbangan akal dan syariat walaupun ketika marah.

Sumber: Bahagian Dakwah Jabatan Agama Islam Selangor (Jais)

Kematian.....

Saat kesorangan...malam-malam....tv kat depan ..laptop ditangan...fikiran melayan... hari-hari ada berita kematian...Mati itu pasti...Yang peliknya...langsung tak takut ....rasa macam bila2 masa pun bersedia kalau maut menjemput.....terbayang andai ada pistol di kepala....pisau at the throat...well let it be then... sentiasa ready...gila ke apa, amal entah cukup entah tidak....ada hati nak mengadap tuhan cepat2...tak takut neraka membara ke....for sure dosa dah bergunung nak dikira....sempat taubat ke .... banyaklah dia punya bersedia... Those who obsess with death are mostly goth people...but I'm not obsess just there's no fear....whenever it will come.....Apsal tiba2 cakap pasal mati....Kisahnya...member-member dok bercerita about those that are near just passed away....without so much inkling of a sign...but that's what death is all about...Hanya Tuhan yg mengetahui....Sering tertanya-tanya...org yg ada akaun fb...kalau mati...akaun still active...gambar2 boleh di view lagi....komen-komen lama...masih segar diamati...tapi tuan empunya dah lama pergi...dah mereput....tinggal rangka agaknya...browse wall...masih ada sahabat-sahabat yg merindui...menulis...shout-out hati....tapi siapa yang baca nanti...member2 jugak...diri sendiri hanya tinggal akaun...kat laki kita dah pesan kalau kita mati....deactivatekan akaun....biar fb hilang sama dengan tuan....Ooooo....lupa kisah kematian .....Kisah satu...sahabat kemalangan di Johor...on the way nak amik anak-anak di umah nenek... meninggalkan suami dan 2 anak.....kawan-kawan sepejabat masih tak dapat terima kenyataan hari nie bergurau senda esok dah hilang....selamanya lagi...Kisah dua...sekeluarga nak ke PD time-time cuti begini....kemalangan...suami cedera...anak tunggal..koma...isteri meninggal....kesedihan...tak terucap....saat patutnya bergembira...meyuakan bencana...Kisah tiga...Suami kawan yg kerjanya driver bas...Taiping express...baring di seat belakang...melepaskan penat badan...termengigau...bukak pintu kecemasan...terjun ditengah-tengah highway...meninggalkan isteri baya kita dan anak dua orang.... mati tak kira sapa...paling pedih bila jadi yang dekat-dekat kita....entahlah...benda bukan boleh jangka...ingatkan diri...sentiasa.....bertaubat bila ada masa...idup nie singkat je..... Allah Huakbar....

Anak2 makin pandai ke Mama tak cukup pengetahuan....

Salam, just a food for thought, they claimed today's generation are brighter,smarter, and whole lot better than last generation...As a mother I can definitely see the differences between kids once I used to be and kidsnowadays where my child is..
Lastnight during Muqaddam recitation...he asked me lots of of questions that make me wonder...am I able to answer all the coming questions that he throw at me...coz last nite it seems...my knowdlegde are way....below his expectations...but he's just only be kid...expecting his mum knows everything...
After so much coaxing and delegating....in all sorts of manner actually in pursuading him to read muqaddam, he sits on my sejadah and...began...(I used to remember during my time..there's no forcing involved in reading the quran coz I wish to khatam earlier than the rest of the hoods..just to prove ...of coz..I'm the best among you guys...woohooo..heheheh!!) ok...back to czar, after a few sentences...he stopped when I explain these are the place where you read two harakah and here is a place when u read with four harakah...then the session halted....The interrogation began...."Mama, why we need to read here is long...and over here longer....?" mama--> coz that's the correct way to rad al-quran with certain rules and regulation... this is Allah's words..must read properly cannot just simply hentam .....(entah betul entah tidak mama pun)... then again.."mama..why we have to read Quran...? Mama---> bcoz we are a muslim and we have to learn to read it...its compulsory...Al-quran is a story that Allah give us for us to study and follow all the teaching..." If its a story...then what does all this means...referring to all the surah...since Mama said...every surah is different story...Mama---> aaahh...sudah...mama tak pandai arab macam mana nak terang...Mama pun main baca...je...tak pernah mendalami maksud dia..."We have to find the translation book...one day I'll tell you what does all the words means..."Mama......"more questions it seems in coming now...and Mama just snap...."can we finished this reading session first...then answer and question session later..he deliberately want to prolong the talking, does not want to continue reading...haiissshhhh....
after half an hour the session ended...which makes me thinking...alamak...kena cari makna setiap surah ke...takpelah...tgu dia besar kut...nanti dia faham...Al-Quran mukjizat tuhan...nak belajar tafsir bukan sebarangan... dan Mama hanya mampu bukak web pegi IKIM ...tafsir muqaddam and tafsir.com...je tengok..yg simple2 je...Penat nak menjawab budak2 zaman sekarnag....Wallah huaklam....

Human Anger.....

Feel so...sad...so...so...sad...no words to decribe...no feeling to apply..no expression to put on the face...Day after day...same news appear on the newspaper face...The case with Syafia still fresh in these days onother baby died.......succumb to the adult rage...
My oh my, ...too sad to mention about newborn unwanted babies... being dispossed with such tragedy...can even occur to normaality of a human being....
One fact that I discover...how people have become a monster....
Once the anger was emerge...nothing in this world can stop with the consequences...How human being of this day have no mercy or control over his rage.....
Brutality to the max was the game....the mind stop at all to take a pause to think...was I'm doing the right thing...NONE...what so ever...
How my heart cried out to see babie in dumpster....being eaten ALIVE!!! by ants and dogs... being BURNT!! and SQUASHED!!..oh my GOD.....is this my world...
They lost the sensibility to think what is right and what is wrong....
I am all cried out for those innocent heart...they know nothing what had happened...
Luckily all kids goes to heaven and the earth just a temporament....
You will pay for whatever things you have done to those pure soul...
Allah Maha Adil...Allah Maha Besar....

Ketika Sesuatunya Sudah Terlambat....

Umpamakan dirimu, wahai orang yang tertipu, berada
Di Hari Kiamat, dan langit bergoncang
Ketika matahari di siang hari di gulung dan didekatkan
Ke atas kepala hamba-hamba yang sedang berjalan

Ketika bintang-bintang berjatuhan dan berguguran
Dan berganti setelah terang menjadi gelap
Ket...ika lautan memuncratkan air karena ketakutan
Dan engkau melihatnya bagaikan jahim yang menggelegak

Ketika gunung-gunung tercerabut dari akar-akarnya
Maka engkau melihatnya bagai awan yang berlalu
Ketika binatang ternak bunting ditinggalkan dan ambruk,
Rumah-rumah jadi kosong tidak ada padanya yang didiami

Ketika binatang liar dikumpulkan di Hari Kiamat
Engkau katakan kepada kepunyaan ke mana hendak berjalan
Ketika orang-orang muslim yang bertakwa menikah
Bidadari yang dihiasi oleh perasaan-perasaan

Ketika anak-anak perempuan yang dikubur hidup-hidup ditanya tentang masalahnya, Atas dosa apa yang pantas jadi alasan mereka di bunuh Ketika Rabb Yang Maha Agung melipat langit dengan tangan kanan-Nya Seperti melipat lembaran kertas yang dibentangkan

Ketika catatan-catatan amal diedarkan dan berterbangan
Dan hancurlah seluruh tirai untuk orang-orang beriman
Ketika langit di lenyapkan dari penghuninya
Dan lihat orbit-orbit langit berputar-putar

Ketika neraka jahim dinyalakan apinya
Terdengar suara nyalanya untuk orang-orang berdosa
Ketika surga-surga berhias dan memakai wewangian
Yang diperuntukkan bagi pemuda yang bersabar menghadapi
Ujian yang berkepanjangan

Ketika janin bergantungan dalam perut ibunya
Takut akan pembalasan sedang hatinya cemas
Tanpa ada dosa ternyata bayi dalam perut merasa takut
Maka bagaimana dengan orang yang terus menerus berbuat dosa
Sepanjang masa.

Masing-masing menyebutkan kemurkaan Rabb-nya dan menyatakan sibuk mengurus diri sendiri, “Sendiri,sendiri!” Sibuk dengan urusan sendiri dan tak sempat mengurusi pembelaan untuk mereka. Demikianlah Allah mengatakan,

"Ingatlah, suatu hari (ketika) tiap=tiap diri datang untuk membela dirinya sendiri.” (An-Nahl : 111)

Bayangkan riuh rendahnya suara seluruh makhluk yang berseru secara
serentak, sementara pihak yang diseru masing-masing sibuk memikirkan
keselamatan diri sendiri dengan menyatakan, “Sendiri, sendiri.” Betapa
dahsyatnya hari itu, engkau berseru kepada mereka, sedangkan mereka menyatakan, “Urusi diri sendiri dan perhatikan keselamatannya dari adzab Rabbmu dan hukuman-Nya.” Apa perkiraanmu tentang suatu hari dipanggil untuk diminta pertolongan padanya Al-Mushtafa Adam, Al-Khalil Ibrahim, Al-Kalim Musa, serta ruh dan kalimat-Nya Isa, yang mendapatkan kemuliaan di hadapan Allah dan memiliki kedudukan yang tinggi di sisi-Nya, namun kendati demikian mereka hanya bisa mengatakan, “Sendiri, sendiri!” Lantaran takut terhadap murka Allah swt.

Maka dimana posisimu di antara mereka pada hari itu, dalam kecemasan, kesibukanmu, kesedihanmu dan ketakutanmu?! Hingga ketika seluruh makhluk telah putus asa terhadap syafaat mereka, akhirnya mereka beramai-ramai datang kepada Nabi Muhammad saw dan minta pembelaan kepadanya di sisi Rabb mereka, maka beliau pun memenuhi permintaan mereka. Lalu beliau berdiri menghadap Rabb-nya Azza wa Jalla dan meminta izin kepada-Nya. Setelah Allah swt mengizinkannya, beliau langsung bersimpuh, sujud kepada Rabb-nya, lalu menyampaikan puja-puji kepada-Nya, karena hanya Dia-lah yang berhak menerimanya. Semua itu diikuti dengan seksama oleh pendengaranmu dan pendengaran seluruh makhluk, hidup Rabb Azza wa Jalla berkenan menerima permohonan untuk disegerakan pemeriksaan dan pengadilan terhadap berbagai perkara mereka. Wallahu’alam bish-showab

Bahaya Horoscope.....

UNTUK MEREKA2 YG SUKA BACA HOROSCOPE...

Rasulullah s.a.w. bersabda : مَنْ أَتَى عَرَّافًا فَسَأَلَهُ عَنْ شَيْئٍ فَصَدَّقَهُ بِمَا يَقُولُ ، لَمْ تُقْبَلْ لَهُ صَلاَةٌ أَرْبَعِيْنَ يَوْمًا Barangsiapa yang mendatangi bomoh untuk bertanya tentang sesuatu perkara lalu dia membenarkan apa yang bomoh itu katakan, maka tidak diterima solatnya selama empat puluh hari. ( Riwayat Muslim )

Rasulullah s.a.w. bersabda lagi : مَنَ أَتَى كَاهِنًا فَصَدَّقَهُ بِمَا يَقُوْلُ فَقَدْ كَفَرَ بِمَا أُنْزِلَ عَلَى مُحَمَّدٍ (صَلَّى اللهُ عَلَيْهِ وَسَلَّمَ ) Barangsiapa yang mendatangi bomoh lalu ia mempercayai apa yang bomoh itu katakan maka kafirlah ia terhadap apa yang Allah turunkan kepada Nabi Muhammad s.a.w. ( Riwayat Al-Bazzar dengan sanad yang kuat ; berkata al-Haithami perawinya shohih kecuali ‘Uqbah bin Sinan 5/117 ; Muntaqa , 2/791 )


Ramalan sebegini membawa kepada syirik dan hukum mempercayainya ialah haram dan berdosa. Telah diriwayatkan oleh Abdullah ibn Abbas ra Rasulullah s.a.w. telah bersabda :

Sesiapa yang mengambil sebahagian dari ilmu bintang (nujum) maka sesungguhnya dia telah mengambil sebahagian dari ilmu sihir yang setiap kali bertambah ilmu bintangnya (berkaitan ramalan) maka bertambah pulalah ilmu sihirnya . (hadith sahih diriwayatkan oleh Abu Daud, Nasaie dan Ahmad).

SOLAT mereka yang membaca ramalan bintang sama ada di akhbar, majalah atau di internet tidak akan diterima Allah selama 40 hari, tidak kira mereka percaya atau sebaliknya kerana perbuatan itu sama seperti berjumpa dengan tukang ramal.

Pensyarah fakulti Syariah dan Undang-undang Universiti Sains Islam Malaysia (USIM), Nik Salida Suhaila Nik Saleh, menjelaskan perkara itu berdasarkan ulasan ulama terkenal Yusuf al-Qardawi mengenai hukum membaca ramalan bintang.

Katanya, walau seseorang itu tidak membenarkan apa yang dibaca, solatnya tetap tidak diterima selama 40 hari dan jika membaca serta membenarkan pula ramalan itu, maka orang itu dikatakan kufur kepada ajaran Muhammad.

Bagaimanapun katanya, jika membaca dengan tujuan untuk membantah, menjelaskan dan mengingkari amalan syirik, hukumnya dituntut malah menjadi wajib kerana tujuan memberi pengajaran kepada orang lain.

"Jelas amalan meramal, membaca dan menaruh sikit rasa yakin apa dikatakan ramalan bintang itu perlu dijauhi mulai hari ini. Ini bukan perkara main-main atau seronok-seronok kerana ia bercanggah dengan hukum Islam," katanya.

Telah jelas hukum sihir bahawa ianya haram menurut kesepakatan ulama dan membawa kepada kufur serta terbatal iman. Maka di dalam masalah ilmu horoskop ini hendaklah para pemuda-pemudi Islam berhati-hati dan tidak mempercayai apa-apa dari ramalan bintang-bintang ini yang jauh dari kebenaran dan dipenuhi kedustaan dan penipuan sekalipun terdapat kepadanya beberapa berita yang mendekati kebenaran.

Dan Dialah yang menjadikan bintang-bintang bagimu, agar kamu menjadikannya petunjuk dalam kegelapan di darat dan di laut. Sesungguhnya Kami telah menjelaskan tanda-tanda kebesaran (Kami) kepada orang-orang yang mengetahui . (Al-An am : 97).

Imam Bukhari ra telah meriwayatkan di dalam kitab sahihnya bahawa Qatadah, seorang ulama tabien yang terkenal telah berkata : Allah telah menciptakan bintang-bintang untuk tiga perkara iaitu perhiasan langit, pelempar syaitan dan sebagai tanda-tanda penunjuk arah maka barangsiapa yang mentafsirkan bintang-bintang selain dari tiga perkara ini maka ianya adalah salah dan sia-sia iaitu mensia-siakan nasibnya serta memaksa dirinya dengan sesuatu yang dia tidak mempunyai ilmu untuk mengetahuinya.

Mempelajari ilmu bintang seperti ilmu falaq, ilmu kaji bumi dan astrologi untuk tujuan kebaikan bagi mendapat maklumat yang berguna bagi keselamatan manusia dan faedah kepada manusia dari sudut ilmu pengetahuan yang membawa manfaat tidaklah salah. Tetapi mempelajari ilmu astrologi untuk tujuan horoskop dan meramal nasib maka hukumnya ialah haram dan berdosa.

Erti Cinta.....

Suatu masa kita akan bertemu seseorang yang keunikannya sehaluan dengan kita, kita bersama dengannya dan jatuh ke dalam suatu keanehan yang dinamakan cinta. Ada sesuatu yang tidak ingin kita lepaskan. Seseorang yang tidak ingin kita tinggalkan. Tapi ingatlah, melepaskan bukan akhir dari dunia, melainkan awal suatu kehidupan baru. Kebahagiaan ada untuk mereka yang menangis, mereka yang disakiti, mereka yang telah mencari dan mereka yang telah mencuba. Kerana merekalah yang dapat menghargai betapa pentingnya orang yang telah menyentuh kehidupan mereka.

Cinta yang sejati, adalah ketika kita menitiskan air mata dan masih mengingatinya, ketika kita masih menunggunya dengan setia, ketika dia mula mencintai orang lain tapi kita masih boleh tersenyum. Apabila cinta tidak tercapai, bebaskan diri, biarkan hati kembali melebarkan sayap dan terbang ke alam bebas lagi. Ingatlah, bahawa kita mungkin akan menemukan cinta dan kehilangannya, tapi ketika cinta itu mati, kita tidak perlu mati bersamanya.

Seseorang yang kuat bukannya mereka yang selalu menang, melainkan mereka yang tetap gigih ketika mereka jatuh. Entah bagaimana dalam perjalanan kehidupan, kita belajar tentang diri sendiri dan menyedari bahawa penyesalan tidak seharusnya ada. Hanyalah penghargaan abadi atas pilihan-pilihan kehidupan yang telah kita buat.

Mencintai bukanlah bagaimana kita melupakan, mendengar, melihat dan melepaskan tapi bagaimana kita memaafkan, mengerti, merasakan dan bertahan. Lebih berbahaya menitiskan airmata dalam hati, dibandingkan menangis tersedu-sedu. Air mata yang keluar dapat dihapus, tetapi air mata yang tersembunyi mengguriskan luka yang tidak akan pernah hilang.

Dalam cinta sesama manusia, kita sering sukar untuk menang. Tapi ketika cinta itu tulus, meskipun kalah, kita tetap menang hanya kerana kita bahagia dapat mencintai seseorang lebih dari kita mencintai diri sendiri. Akan tiba saatnya di mana kita harus berhenti mencintai seseorang bukan kerana orang itu berhenti mencintai kita, tapi kerana kita menyedari bahawa orang itu akan lebih bahagia apabila kita melepaskannya. Sebaliknya, apabila kita benar-benar mencintai seseorang, jangan lepaskan dia, jangan percaya bahawa melepaskan selalu bererti kita benar-benar mencintai. Berjuanglah demi cintamu, itulah cinta sejati. Lebih baik menanti orang yang kita inginkan daripada berjalan bersama orang yang sedia ada. Kadangkala, orang yang kita cintai adalah orang yang paling menyakiti hati dan kadangkala teman yang menangis bersama adalah cinta yang tidak kita sedari.

Miracle of 5 Prayers..Scientifically....

A miracle...read slowly..

Did you know that the composition of the cycles in which we do pray 5 times a day has a mathematical miracle??
Here's the magic: We know Prayer must consist of 5 times 17 Raka'at in day and night.

1 Shubuh ........ 2 raka'at
2 Zhuhur ........ 4 rakaat
3 'Ashar ......... 4 rakaat
4 Maghrib ...... 3 rakaat
5 'Isya ...........4 rakaat
----------------- + .
.....................17 raka'at


1. We collated the number of raka'at: 24,434, this is divisible by 19, ie 19 x 24,434 = 1286. Consider the results for 1286, the number of = 1 +2 +8 +6 = 17 same as 2 +4 +4 +3 +4 = 17, wow this amazing, what opportunities there are numbers, which by dividing the number 19, then the numbers divided by the number of results for the same number?.

So, why 19???, Clay spoiler number 2 from the bottom

2. Now we move on; put the sequential numbers to pray behind every raka'at prayer, then menjadilah: 21 42 43 34 45, sealed into 2142433445, Subhan Allah is again not a myth, this is the exact numerical data, because 2142433445 = 19 x 112759655.

3. Next we set up the number raka'at every day and we collect the amount found in 1 week: 17 17 17 17 17 17 15, six days each 17 raka'at, except for Friday 15 raka'at (4 cycles Dzuhur replaced by 2 cycles of prayer Friday). We Squeeze, this would be 17171717171715. Again, this is not a myth but the numerical data, or 17171717171715 subhanallah 17.17171715 trillion.

This number is divisible by 19 is 19 x 17171717171715 = 903,774,587,985

4. Still not finished, we move on. Insert numbered 1 to 7 day in each of raka'at, if the previous sequence number is placed in the back, so this time we put in front of so this would be : 1-17 2-17 3-17 4-17 5-17 7-15 and 6-17 sealed 117217317417517617715 let gracious is divisible by 19, and we must use 21-digit calculator, the result? Here it is: 19X6193332495658821985.

if number of digits 117,217,317,417,517,617,715 = 117.217317417517617715 million trillion ...

an amount that is difficult to imagine. And beyond this is usually the number of digits can be divided exactly 19, with no rest ...

If that amount of money we are, means if we spend as much as USD 1 trillion, then we still have around Rp117, again .....217316417517617715 MILLION TRILLION ... ... !!!!!)

5. Has not ended; analogous to the above, but the 15 raka'at placed at the front, became 115217317417517617717, we use 21-digit calculator, result = 19 x 6,064,069,337,764,085,143.

you try to imagine the chance of a 21-digit numbers or numbers that are in the range of hundreds of millions of trillions to be divided 19 were unusually very small ... ..., a number just changed the results to be divided 19 changed all .....

just imagine how many combinations there are in numbers as many as 21 digits ... ..

Never mind the range much for a lot ....
A number of 2-digit number that we choose it randomly, probabilitanya already very small to be divided out 19 with no rest, this 21-digit er ...

And now "great" when converted sequence where 15 cycles (the number of cycles Friday, and Friday is the most special day for Muslims) placed the beginning of the calculation, it turns out he produced a number of numbers divisible by 19 also ... ..

Where both 117217317417517617715 or around 117.217317417517617515 million TRILLION (at point 4) and 115217317417517617717 or about 115.217317417517617717 million TRILLION (at point 5) same all divisible by 19

6. THIS IS THE FINAL, where 17 is replaced with 24,434 for weekdays and 15 on Friday to be replaced by 22,434 (4 substituted 2, because the day is replaced Ju'mat Dzuhur 2 raka'at Friday prayer), it will be:

1-24434 2-24434 3-24434 4-24434 5-24434 6-24434 7-22434, sealed into:
124434224434324434424434524434624434722434. This should use 42-digit calculator is very specific, results = 19 x 6549169707069707074970238128138128143286


Not believe? Can multiplication tested traditional way, using paper with a pencil, as follows:
6549169707069707074970238128138128143286
19
----------------------------------------- X
58942527363627363674732143153243153289574
6549169707069707074970238128138128143286
------------------------------------------ +
124434224434324434424434524434624434722434
you know 124.434.224.434.324.434.424.434.524.434.624.434.72 2,434 HOW IS ...???

the number of digits that much = 124, 434 THOUSAND TRILLION TRILLION TRILLION ....
Rank 3 TRILLION ....!!!!!
Wow I am so touched to see so many FIGURES FIGURES ....
THAT IS THE NUMBER OF POINTS many unimaginable .....


EVEN NUMBER THERE sand AROUND THE EARTH ...
Will never achieve much TOTAL ....

Just change one number in 42 digits, then the results can be divided to 19 change as well ....
IMPOSSIBLE NUMBER OF FIGURES can be found BY RANDOM

FROM THE START OF POINT TO POINT 1 I 5 WHAT not CAN speak - what say Subhanallah MORE THAN HOLY ALMIGHTY GOD YES YOU ARE ...

ORDER COULD derived prayer 1400 YEARS AGO IN THE ISRA' Mi'raj ....
MADE-FOR or authored OWN BY PROPHET MUHAMMAD, THE Ummi (CAN NOT READ AND WRITE ...), studied NEVER TO ANYONE ......
IN THE REGION AS WELL AS A VERY retarded rage ...., AND WHETHER HE CAN THINK ABOUT THIS VERY FAR, ON THE COMPOSITION OF MATHEMATICAL RAKA'AT SHALAT COMBINED WITH DIFFERENT NUMBERS TO 42 FIGURES ......)


So why FIGURES 19 .....????

1. 19 figures privileges described in Alquran without doubt, in this verse:
(29) Blackening the skins. (30) Over it are nineteen [angels]. (31) And We have not made the keepers of the Fire except angels. And We have not made their number except as a trial for those who disbelieve - that those who were given the Scripture will be convinced and those who have believed will increase in faith and those who were given the Scripture and the believers will not doubt and that those in whose hearts is hypocrisy and the disbelievers will say, "WHAT DOES ALLAH INTEND BY THIS AS AN EXAMPLE (NUMBERS) ?" Thus does Allah leave astray whom He wills and guides whom He wills. And none knows the soldiers of your Lord except Him. And mention of the Fire is not but a reminder to humanity. * note that I made bold ....

2. 19 is the number of letters in the sentence Bismillahi'l-Rahmani'l-Rahim, the sentence that begins each letter in the Qur'an, and wrote sentences began when a Muslim prays ......

3. 19 digits consisting of numbers 1 and 9, where the number 1 is the first base and the number 9 is the last base in the system of our calculation. The privilege of showing the nature of Allah 'is the Beginning and Great End ' (Letter to the 57th verse: 3).

4. The special number 19 in the science of mathematics known as one of "Numbers Prima 'the numbers are not divisible by any numbers except with Allah. It symbolizes that the privilege of his nature which is too great not distributed to anyone except for himself (Letter to the 112 paragraph 3) llahh

5. Number 1 symbolizes the nature Allah 'One God' (letter to the 112 paragraph 1), while the number 9 as the largest base represents one of the character 38 is 'Great'.

6. 19 and 81
Dr. Peter Plichta chemists and mathematicians from Germany (Read more Peter Plichta, God's Secret Formula, or the sites of Dr. Peter Plichta.). Argues that, apparently, all mathematical formulas and figures related to the two poles of this mathematical universe of 19 and 81. 81 specific figures because complete number 19, (19 + 81 = 100). The number of these numbers is 19:
1 + 9 +8 +1 = 19.


When we analyze a little further, there is numbers in the following manner: 1:19 = 0.052631578947368421052631578947368421 figures periodically repeated, repeats itself precisely on the 19th digit after the comma, and so on clay 0526 all over again, and, an attractive sum of these numbers:
(0 + 0 + 2 + 5 + 6 + 1 + 3 + 5 + 7 + 8 + 9 + 7 + 4 + 6 + 3 + 4 + 8 + 2 + 1) is a 81 ...!!!

Now: 1: 81 = 0.012345679 ...
Oops .....!!!!!! 8 missing numbers, and other figures appear periodically.
The loss of the number 8 is an illusion, and the reciprocal value of the number 81 is "natural", producing a series of decimal system of numbers 0.1, 2 .... and so on, and the system was not a man-made. But why the number 8, not the other figures, who "lost"? Allegedly, because the number 8 relating to the number 19. Prime numbers to 8 were 19


In the Koran, the number 8 is the number of angels, force, which upholds 'Throne (Chair, Throne), the balance' the Throne, which means dominion power and authority, both before and during Resurrection (al-Haaqqa 69: 17) . Some commentators, such as Muhammad Abdul Halim, translating 'Throne with a "Council of Heaven," 4 or "Territory Government Kosmos". Territory is not limited, "under the 'Throne there (element) of water" (Hud 11: 7). Abundant element hydrogen, the chemical elements of the lightest of the elements of water, H2O. Much broader than the known universe. In Calendar Year Komariyah (Month Distribution System), the Leap Year occurs every 19 years.


6. In the book "Atlas of Anatomy" compiled by Prof.. Dr. Chr. P. Raven can be seen that some of the human skeleton, namely: - there are 7 cervical vertebra, a spinal vertebra 12, so the number 19. According to biologists, the bone segment 19 has a very important role for every human being because in it there is the marrow which is a continuation of the brain, the nerves that go to all parts of the body. A disturbance in the sides and the whole body will lose strength.

7. At point 5, also found it interesting, the tools of the human body such as hands and feet is very important functions for our lives. When examined there were 19 segments of bone in each palm / foot (to the exclusion of segments of the wrist). And do you know if the form of palm / foot-like shape word of Allah (in Arabic)?

And if we multiply the bone room at 4 feet and hands so = 19X4 = 76
76 is the number of surah Al-Insaan the Qur'an which means "man"

8. Then look at the image below
Generally, the human hand has such a curve pla ....
And if we combine the numbers 18 and 81 (in arabic writing) on your right hand and left us, then we will find 1881, and 1881 the number again is a magic number because 81 = 18 + 99 (Asmaul Husna) whereas the combined 1881 results 1881 = 19 X 99 (again the number 19) and when reduced 81-18 = 63 (the age when the Prophet died)


Let us reflect on this verse "We will show them Our signs in all areas of the earth and to themselves, so obvious to them that the Quran is true. Tiadakah enough that thy Lord be witness over all things?" (Surat Fushshilat 41:53)

9. That the number 19 is the code underlying mathematical literary composition of the Koran, a unique phenomenon both at the same time there is no proof that the Quran is divine revelation, not human works. Human brain will not be able to create literary works that are subject to a mathematical code that once carried the main theme. Especially since the revelation gradually, spontaneously (without planned) with a share-share is not a random letter sequence, adapted to the events that background.

taken from : Various Sources

10. Furthermore, the number 19 can function as maintaining the integrity of the Quran. Number 19 can be used to check whether in a book of the Koran there is a fault or not, with how to calculate the crucial words in the Quran whose numbers multiplicative with the number 19, then divide the number of the count with 19, then nothing is a mistake. Thus the entire contents of the Quran will remain intact until the end of the original time because it has been sealed by God with the number 19 which is a symbol of God's identity. Bissawab Allaah knows best.

taken from : Various Sources

That he may know that they have conveyed the messages of their Lord; and He has encompassed whatever is with them and has enumerated all things in number.(QS al-Jinn 72 : 28)

He to whom belongs the dominion of the heavens and the earth and who has not taken a son and has not had a partner in dominion and has created each thing and determined it with [precise] determination. ( QS Al Furqaan 25:2)

Your god is only Allah , except for whom there is no deity. He has encompassed all things in knowledge."
(QS Thaahaa 20 : 98)


The essence of the 3rd verse and the core of this thread is that the science of God encompasses all things, nothing is left behind. All events, natural objects, the creation of the earth and sky, and the structure of the Koran, or what is discussed in this thread is about the structure and composition of cycles required to pray 5 times ...
All these things are organized and structured and systematic count ,nothing happens by chance. Actually, if known, (some) knowledge includes treatises presented and the existing science on the Apostles.

But if there is a question that is what after all is clear, this paragraph may be the answer ....:

And We have not made the keepers of the Fire except angels. And We have not made their number except as a trial for those who disbelieve - that those who were given the Scripture will be convinced and those who have believed will increase in faith and those who were given the Scripture and the believers will not doubt and that those in whose hearts is hypocrisy and the disbelievers will say, "WHAT DOES ALLAH INTEND BY THIS AS AN EXAMPLE (NUMBERS) ?"..... (al-Muddatstsir 74: 29-31)

Sepotong Roti penebus Dosa..

Abu Burdah bin Musa Al-Asy’ari meriwayatkan, bahwa ketika menjelang wafatnya Abu Musa pernah berkata kepada puteranya: “Wahai anakku,ingatlah kamu akan cerita tentang seseorang yang mempunyai sepotong roti.”

Dahulu kala di sebuah tempat ibadah ada seorang lelaki yang sangat tekun beribadah kepada Allah. Ibadah yang dilakukannya itu selama lebih kurang tujuh puluh tahun. Tempat ibadahnya tidak pernah ditinggalkannya, kecuali pada hari-hari yang telah dia tentukan. Akan tetapi pada suatu hari, dia digoda oleh seorang wanita sehingga dia n tergoda dalam pujuk rayunya dan bergelimang di dalam dosa selama tujuh hari sebagaimana perkara yang dilakukan oleh pasangan suami-isteri.

Setelah ia sedar, maka ia lalu bertaubat, sedangkan tempat ibadahnya itu ditinggalkannya, kemudian ia melangkahkan kakinya pergi mengembara sambil disertai dengan mengerjakan solat dan bersujud.Akhirnya dalam pengembaraannya itu ia sampai ke sebuah pondok yang di dalamnya sudah terdapat dua belas orang fakir miskin, sedangkan lelaki itu juga bermaksud untuk menumpang bermalam di sana, kerana sudah sangat letih dari sebuah perjalanan yang sangat jauh, sehingga akhirnya dia tertidur bersama dengan lelaki fakir miskin dalam pondok itu.

Rupanya di samping kedai tersebut hidup seorang pendita yang ada setiap malamnya selalu mengirimkan beberapa buku roti kepada fakir miskin yang menginap di pondok itu dengan masing-masingnya mendapat sebuku roti. Pada waktu yang lain, datang pula orang lain yang membagi-bagikan roti kepada setiap fakir miskin yang berada di pondok tersebut, begitu juga dengan lelaki yang sedang bertaubat kepada Allah itu juga mendapat bahagian, karena disangka sebagai orang miskin.

Rupanya salah seorang di antara orang miskin itu ada yang tidak mendapat bahagian dari orang yang membahagikan roti tersebut,sehingga kepada orang yang membahagikan roti itu ia berkata: “Mengapa kamu tidak memberikan roti itu kepadaku.”
Orang yang membagikan roti itu menjawab: “Kamu dapat melihat sendiri,roti yang aku bagikan semuanya telah habis, dan aku tidak membahagikan kepada mereka lebih dari satu buku roti.”

Mendengar ungkapan dari orang yang membahagikan roti tersebut, maka lelaki yang sedang bertaubat itu lalu mengambil roti yang telah diberikan kepadanya dan memberikannya kepada orang yang tidak mendapat bahagian tadi. Sedangkan keesokan harinya, orang yang bertaubat itu meninggal dunia.

Di hadapan Allah, maka ditimbanglah amal ibadah yang pernah dilakukan oleh orang yang bertaubat itu selama lebih kurang tujuh puluh tahun dengan dosa yang dilakukannya selama tujuh malam. Ternyata hasil dari timbangan tersebut, amal ibadat yang dilakukan selama tujuh puluh tahun itu dikalahkan oleh kemaksiatan yang dilakukannya selama tujuh malam. Akan tetapi ketika dosa yang dilakukannya selama tujuh malam itu ditimbang dengan sebuku roti yang pernah diberikannya kepada fakir miskin yang sangat memerlukannya, ia ternyata menjadi penebus dosa.